Re:Zero Episode 17

At the End of Disgrace (醜態の果てに) is the seventeenth episode of the Re:Zero anime.

Plot
Being under the attack of the Hakugei, the remaining merchants, along Subaru, Rem, and Otto, started to run for their lives, aware that they stand no chance against such an opponent. Seeing no other way out of this situation, though, Rem left the money in Subaru's care and temporarily paralyses him with a hit in his throat. Unable to move, he couldn't stop her from going to fight the whale, and his consciousness slowly fades as he sees her leaving for his sake. Regaining his consciousness, he found himself still in Otto's carriage, trying to get out of the mist. Subaru gets angry at Otto for abandoning Rem, but while they are still arguing Otto suddenly forgets who Rem is. The whale gets them from behind, but they manage to get some time and distance and surpass it again. Otto panics and keeps wondering why, out of all the merchants in the mist, the Hakugei keeps following them. Subaru then realizes it is a Demon Beast and therefore it must be attracted by him. Hearing this, Otto throws Subaru off the carriage with no hesitation.

Seeing himself left alone and threatened by the Whale, Subaru can only think of running, but his current condition won't allow him to do his best. He gains advantage due to the Whale's howl, with him being blown away. He then gets up and keeps running and somehow loses it behind. He then searches the surroundings for a trace of it, but instead sees Otto's carriage approaching. When about to get on, Subaru notices then Otto is missing. He asks the dragon about him, but he receives an answer only when noticing the Witch's Cult's daggers and some spilled blood. Saddened, he hops in and tells the dragon to go forward to the village. It is only in the morning that they arrive and they are greeted by the village's children. Relieved that they are still alive, Subaru faints.

Subaru woke up to find himself at the Roswaal mansion, with Ram standing by his side, who he mistook for Rem. When he jumps at her out of happiness and relief, she told him that his gesture can be considered indecent, moment when he realized that it was Rem's sister and not Rem herself. Subaru then asks who healed him. After hearing that it was Emilia, he is overwhelmed by guilt.

Subaru goes to see Emilia and tries to force her out that place, but his despair doesn't allow him to explain anything. Therefore, Emilia doesn't cooperate and Subaru is obligated to try and tell her the truth. While he gathers his courage and words, she is confused and sad at the same time and asks him why he is crying. He didn't realize this fact; afterwards, he decides to put his life at stake and tell her about his ability, not caring what was to happen anymore. But while he begins to tell her what is happening, the energy sets into motion; only this time, it doesn't affect him that bad. Seeing this, Subaru decides to continue the explanation, but he sees Emilia isn't alright: she was killed by the force in his stead.



Beatrice makes her appearance in the room and Subaru, in his despair and pain, begged for her to kill him. She says that she's had enough pain and sorrow, so she sends him away along with Emilia's body, saying that if he wanted to die, he should do it away from her sight.

Subaru appears in the middle of a forest, still holding Emilia in his arms. In his agony, he shouts for somebody to kill him, and then some members of the Witch's Cult appear, lead by Petelgeuse. The latter tries to hit him with his Unseen Hand, but Subaru dodges; this makes Petelgeuse angry, for there is no person to have seen the Unseen Hand given from the Witch of Envy. His attacks are stopped, though, by none other than Pack, who came to rescue Emilia, whom Pack referred to as his daughter.

Characters

 * Natsuki Subaru
 * Rem
 * Otto Suwen
 * Petra Leyte
 * Mild
 * Lucas
 * Dine
 * Ram
 * Emilia
 * Pack
 * Petelgeuse Romanee-Conti
 * Beatrice