Re:Zero Episode 17

At the End of Disgrace (醜態の果てに) is the seventeenth episode of the Re:Zero anime.

Plot
Being under the attack of the Hakugei, the remaining merchants, along Subaru, Rem, and Otto, are trying to run for their lives, aware that they stand no chance against such an opponent. Seeing no other way out of this situation, though, Rem leaves the money in Subaru's care and temporarily paralises him with a hit in his throat. Unable to move, he cannot stop her from going to fight the whale, and his consciousness slowly fades as he sees her leaving for his sake. Regaining his consciousness, he's still in Otto's carriage, trying to get out of the mist. Subaru gets angry at Otto for abandoning Rem, but while they are still arguing Otto suddenly forgets who Rem is. The whale gets them from behind, but they manage to get some time and distance and surpass it again. Otto panicks and keeps wondering why, out of all the merchants in the mist, the Hakugei keeps following them. Subaru then realises it is a Demon Beast and therefore it must be attracted by him. Hearing this, Otto throws Subaru off the carriage with no hesitation.

Seeing himself left alone and threatened by the Whale, Subaru can only think of running, but his current condition won't allow him to do his best. He gains advantage due to the Whale's howl, with him being blown away. He then gets up and keeps running and somehow loses it behind. He then searches the surroundings for a trace of it, but instead sees Otto's carriage approaching. When about to get on, Subaru notices then Otto is missing. He asks the dragon about him, but he receives an answer only when noticing the Witch's Cult's daggers and some spilled blood. Saddened, he hops in and tells the dragon to go forward to the village. It is only in the morning that they arrive and they are greeted by the village's children. Relieved that they are still alive, Subaru faints.

When he wakes up, he is at the Roswaal mansion, with Ram standing by his side, which he mistakes for Rem. When he jumps at her out of happiness and relief, she tells him that his gesture can be considered indecent, moment when he realises that it was Rem's sister and not Rem herself. He then asks who healed him, and, when hearing that it was Emilia, he is overwhelmed by guilt.

Sugaru goes to see Emilia and tries to force her out that place, but his despair doesn't allow him to explain anything. Therefore, Emilia doesn't cooperate and Subaru is obligated to try and tell her the truth. While he gathers his courage and words, she is confused and sad at the same time and asks him why he is crying. He didn't realize this fact; afterwards, he decides to put his life at stake and tell her about his ability, not caring what was to happen anymore. But while he begins to tell her what is happening, the energy sets into motion; only this time, it doesn't affect him that bad. Seeing this, Subaru decides to continue the explanation, but he sees Emilia isn't alright: she was killed by the force in his stead.



Characters

 * Natsuki Subaru
 * Rem
 * Otto Suwen
 * Ram
 * Emilia
 * Pack
 * Petelgeuse Romanee-Conti
 * Beatrice